Regret and Determination

I really regretted what I did today.

At the office, I was doing a job which I think it was needed and a manager and other people said so too. We had the idea from last September but nobody had not dealing with yet by the early of this year because everybody knew it would take a long time to finish. So I started the job and I finished to ready the data for install a system. However I noticed one problem that the data was getting huge and I cannot just ask SE to update data. So that  I asked system manager what I need to do and he said I need to ask my boss to ask an chief  for an permission of the update install. However my boss's reaction was negative and by boss said this is not small problem and this update install might effect on many things and my boss cannot take care of so that ask the system manager....


Basically I started this project because I notice we are solving the problem temporarily not radically. Although I knew the number error data will be large, I was sure we should do this.

However I disappointed so much when I saw my boss's reaction. I thought it was negative decision but I had no idea what I needed to do. All day  Ｉ didn't assent at all, I felt angry and I was also frustrated because I couldn't do anything.

On the way home, I talked  a senior associate what happened today. She understood what I was try to do and she agreed what I wanted to do. She also said I should finish this project. I was thinking what I did today and what I can do next time. I think still I can do something . Even if the problem that we have is small, a temporary solution is not  solving a the problem.

I always care my position and I am not try to say too much even if I have ideas and opinions. So I don't push hard for my idea even if I am sure the ides is correct. However, I noticed sometimes I should say and I should do what I think the right.

Now I think I have something I can do more before stop or give up.
I will try something next work day!!!!!